Forget It

Don't push me, please. You don't hear me, I question wether or not you even see me. Thought that you did, fear that I was fooled. I feel like you want to stay so far from me, even as you spend each night with me. I know that you don't trust me, unclear if you would like to and can't or if you don't even want to try. Every time I think I'm closer to knowing you, you trip me ~ I am almost sure that you do it on purpose.
All the time I've spent in awe of you, of your magic and your fire; you see it as my choice and my time wasted.