Today I Am

Today I am this girl, can’t remember what color her hair is
Who doesn’t know her role in life and sees a strangers hands
And yes I meant it when I said I loved you
But I didn’t realize you thought that meant it was okay to make plans
I just don’t do so well with a schedule
A pre-set timeline of when and where
‘Cause I never know when I’ll show up at your house
I might get there early or I might decide to stay home and change the color of my hair

Who I’ll be tomorrow
Isn’t who I plan to stay
Yet, I’ll probably always try new things
I’ll probably always be this way

And now I am going to rent a scary movie
So I can pretend to face my fears
When in reality monsters just don’t scare me
It’s the world that leaves me trembling in tears
And what it is that scares me
Has no face for me to face
It’s all these unknown possibilities
It’s all this moving place to place

And who I am today
Isn’t who I’ll be forever
But I’ll always have a dry sense of humor
Always have to say something clever

Baby, sure I’d like to love you always
And I think I’d like to settle down sometime
But I don’t know if I am capable of a quite life
I just get so nervous when things begin to unwind
And I don’t need it see it fall apart completely
To know exactly where this thing will end
Oh and, darling, I think you’re an amazing girl
Only I’m not sure I can handle yet another lover turning into just a friend

Go ahead and love me
If you are willing to love me and understand that

Who I’ll be tomorrow
Isn’t who I plan to stay
Still, I’ll probably always try new things
And I’ll probably always be this way


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Broken From The Fall

Every minute takes an eternity to pass me by
As if even the seconds are turning to watch me cry
Well here I am, take a long, long look
Take the longest look of them all
Each tear takes me down with it
It’s just fall, after fall
And I am just trying to hold myself together
Just long enough to make something better
Just holding out for better weather

And please don’t meet my eyes
Don’t pretend this was all some huge surprise
‘Cause here we are, take a long, long look
Take the longest look of them all
Each excuse leaves another crack
And we are both broken from this fall
You, with all that you pretend to be
You had to know I’d figure things out eventually
You had to know that it would dawn on me

I really don’t have so many things to pack
Strange how I have no real reason for coming back
This is the end now; take a long, long look
Take the longest look of them all
It’s always one tiny lie that lets others through
And I won’t be standing around waiting for the downfall
I can’t pretend that I don’t know the whole story
I can’t pretend things are as different as they would need to be
And now you are simply you, with out me